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Oh gosh. Some parts of me are horribly shy. I realized how quirky this sounds coming from me. I guess, other then reading an experience, I dunno how this can be a how too, unless, well you watch or read porn to get new ideas and well, I do.

Everyday I talk to hundreds of people. Could be here at work at GV or on the bus and Bart. I feel like wherever I am, I am the ambassador of something.Here it’s the Ambassador of Sex.There it’s Ambassador of tattoo , cause I have quite a lot and people are curious and ask questions. When not here at GV teaching customers about our products, I am at my other job (of which I have many, many more- cause I am a busy body) tattooing people. Both lifechanging, both leave marks on people for life. I feel good making people feel beautiful, inside and out.

Let’s shorten Ambassador anyhoo, cause I’m not really sure I am spelling it right anyway and spell check can sometimes, ya know, break the mood.

(that’s foreshadowing for you grammer prone persons)

So Ambass. Today I was the Ambass. of “getting in the mood” which I can giggle to myself, “hey girl listen to your own advice” with the stress of the world, sometimes it can be really hard to “get in the mood”. These customers asked me for a magical cream they can put on their gentials that will help them feel sexy and want to have sex. With our language barrier (which I am working very hard to overcome) I could tell that reg. lubricant need not apply. Vibrators were out. Hmmm. This could be tougher then I thought. I pointed to my head, it is in here I said, thinking of something you find sexy, blood rushes to the area, you get excited…..

She wanted the magical cream. We do have tingling balm, with just a bit of menthol, citrus scent..ZING! Not exactly what they wanted but they wanted to try it to see what it can do. Maybe they will come back and let me know how it worked (sometimes customers do). Gosh, if only it was that easy. I have been in her shoes. And even in my high heels it can be hard to get there, even with ALL this knowledge we SESA (Sex-Educators-Sales Associates) possess.

I have a couple of thoughts/fantasys that send me over the moon, and I will get over this shyness and write about them someday… but I gleamed a little helpful advise of YouTube yesterday. Little did I know it would be a voice and the glimpse of a wrist, just a wrist but it was HER wrist. That voice and wrist was Betty Page , the most photographed woman of all time, and the very Ambass of all sexy in pin-up as well as fetish. She won’t show herself now, prefering to have us remember her as she was then. As the interviewer looked upon her adoringly, he asked her what she imagined while taking photos and doing her Burlesque numbers. She mentioned. “I imagine the camera is my boyfriend, and what I would like to show him.”

DING!

I was to perform in a Burlesque show on Sunday night and I haven’t performed Burlesque since the Millieum changed over to the big “00″ . Looking at the lovely lady “Miss Bella Trixx” (who teaching such a class on this very thing at our Polk Street Store on Friday Sept. 28th BTW) I thought, hmmm. she needs acts and I have this idea sitting in my head FOREVER.

I was nervous as hell, waking up in the middle of the night!!! What? This from a girl that has sung to thousands, and does to hundreds on a regular basis? Featured in magazines, coffee table fetish books, which photographs hang in her parents house??

So I ponied up the courage and said sign me up, Sista. I choose a name, well actually my partner did from our ..ahem…”home” movies, and I thought, here is my supersexy persona! My own persona is sexy enough, having used my real name forever, but she (me) has gotten so shy since the fetish modeling days of yore. While Angel X teases, Marie La Faux will take it off and show ‘dem pasties.

I spent days making a costume and somehow in the process the world stress dropped, as I sew sequins on a G-string, I imagined all the hot Lesbians, Trans guys (my fave fans) seeing me as they never have seen before. I wouldn’t be singing hints at them, I would be following up with some in your face ACTION. The very thought of folks seeing me bare! Not covered in leather,latex, paint whatever…bare. Ass, tits and all..(well cleverly covered in fun-fur, sequins and glitter, mind you. It is the art of the tease, peek and very classy reveal.

I choose one of my fave songs “Little Red Riding Hood” by Sam Sham in the Pharohs, that you have prob. heard a million times on oldy’s stations. I have this things for well, wolves. Like big scary Werewolves out of the “The Howling”, very tall, lots of teeth, ready to eat me. Taking an old costume made for me by my best friend Dave of Shadow Circus Creature Theatre (of which I perform in as a puppeteer) of a giant red animatronic remote control wolf, I plunked it on my partner Mr .Xtacy, and plotted my fantasy come to life. He would wear leather and that head, hands and feet of the wolf and I would taunt him, tease him with all the hot, hot people WATCHING.

Ah ha. Little shy girl figures out her fantasy. While it maybe easier for me to help you with figuring out yours and what tools I can sell you to get you there, figuring out myself has been, well kinda hard. I am so very lucky My partner is paitent and more then willing to help out… (now that I have a way to communicate my desire)

….and dress up as a big bad Werewolf so I can strip down to that hot crowd!

Roleplaying on stage where I am used to being, I forgot about being close to nude. Here is me and my man, playing a game with my lezi-trannie-drag-fag-fauxqueen cheering section, hooting with my every step, turn bump and grind.

All I can think of was us, was the clothes coming off at the right time etc. but when I replay it in my minds eye I have a new fantasy I can recall just at the time I need to. Just as I suggested to the customers today!

hmmm.maybe my experience can help? maybe you don’t have to go to the lengths that I did to figure it all out, but a little inspiration can go a long life-changing, awakening way.

(our video is up on myspace! now you all can see it!)